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Captain Kangaroo is dead
01.23.04 (3:00 pm)   [edit]
I'm sure we'll hear all about it...

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Bosses suck
01.20.04 (12:26 pm)   [edit]
I'm in this lowly position here where I work but am making strides toward (publicizing myself as) becoming a marketing whiz. An excellent writer who makes a strong case for our product (versus the competition). As well, I am the clear-thinker who can makes sense of "superiors'" vague desires for presentations, and I sort out their fluff from their valid arguments.

Outside of work, I am taking classes and pursuing occupational interests to further myself along the notariety I am building for myself here at work.

And what does f'ing moron dickhead boss do? He seems intent on keeping me down "in my place" as a freaking secretary. He volunteers me to other departments (who don't know me) not to be involved in the idea-generation stages of task forces but to put together Powerpoint presentations of the ideas the task force has been working on for two months. Boss-man is keen on publicizing me around the company as some lowly secretary whiz, not as a whiz-kid thinker. (By the way, what do I do when I finally appear at one of these meetings supposedly as a "secretary"? I see everyone arguing about this and that problem and propose a solution which everyone just loves.)

And does my boss recognize my brilliant contribution to the Task Force's problem? No. Today he asks me, [i]"What would you charge to do an outside project for a buddy of mine? It's entering about 900 names into a database for a mail merge."[/i] F you buddy! Like I have time (or an hourly worth, or status) to do data entry in my spare time. [i]"It'd be worth about $200 to you." [/i] F you again boss-man: If I am so desperate for $200 I can do any number of more interesting and skilled projects. I don't need your stinking $200 thoughts of me as some homebound granny with a computer entering names into a database. F YOU!! :evil:
 
Links to humor!
01.11.04 (9:09 pm)   [edit]
In need of a laugh? Here are two very funny "movies." The first is my new favorite home video in the history of the world... because I don't particularly like cats. Hahaha... Silly little buggers.. hahaha...

Cat video :arrow: http://www.albinoblacksheep.c...

And the second is a flash animation about the english language:

English lesson :arrow: http://students.washington.ed...


Enjoy!
 
Oops! I forgot to get a life.
01.09.04 (10:55 am)   [edit]
I've spent much of my life having fun. Whoops! Now I'm getting older and my past fun didn't get me much anywhere. So now I'm doing this dumb low-position job that does afford me at least [i]some[/i] measure of both creative and business-clever opportunity, but I'm still too low on the totem pole.

So in a couple weeks I'll begin (slowly, at first) taking some business classes - marketing, mostly - because I seem to be good at it and enjoy it.

Further, all my friends are married and have kids (to keep them company in later years when they're either alone or sick of their spouses, which I already see happening) but I have none. I didn't want any of that back then. Now I'm considering it. Hm. Well, I'll probably just delay on that 'til I'm alone and dead. Putting off important things that I should have done earlier seems to be the method I've learned for my life.

Oh well, at least I managed to squeeze together some money to buy my own house. That's something, anyway.
 
Getting old!
01.06.04 (4:32 pm)   [edit]
My niece's 30th birthday is coming up. I remember her FIRST birthday! Last night I began scanning some old photos of her as a baby & teen to give to her on her birthday (including photos of her 1st birthday). I also saw pictures of my parents at that time. In those photos they were only a few years older than I am now. Today, they are in their late 70s. This scares me! Because this means that in only these same few more years (30, but they seem to go very quickly) that have passed since my niece's 1st birthday, I will be about as old as my parents are today! :shock:

OH MY FREAKIN GOD! Listen up, young people: [i]TAKE ADVANTAGE[/i] of your youth! Don't try to please anyone but yourself. [b]Be selfish![/b] When you're older, you'll be content to have done the things YOU wanted. And, there's a great phrase: [i]"When you're older, you rarely regret the things you HAVE done, but often regret the things you DID NOT do." [/i]So, take [i]every[/i] opportunity that arises (whatever :wink: that opportunity is!).
 
Julee Cruise. Artsy People.
01.06.04 (10:36 am)   [edit]
When I sat down here @ work I needed some kind of unusual creative ambience while I work. So I started playing music of Julee Cruise on my computer. You know her? Think of the TV show "Twin Peaks." She did the soundtrack (performed it, that is, to Angelo Badalamente's music and David Lynch's lyrics).

Anyway, my point is that I am [b]SO[/b] comfortable in wierd, ethereal, dreamscape music. (I also feel extremely "at home" in the wierd worlds of David Lynch movies: he is EXACTLY (I mean, not just close, but [i]exactly[/i]) the expression of worlds/moods/behaviors/me anings(?)/symbols etc that I envision. Filmmaker Roman Polanski comes in second.)

So THIS is what I'm getting at: I'm single. I want a chick who thinks like David Lynch. An artist. A painter or poet. Or a singer who performs cool stuff like Julee Cruise. My mind exists in worlds of ethereal music in minor keys and in worlds where no one is sure just what reality is.

I want to model for this artist-chick of mine but only if she paints or draws or sculpts me as some expressionistic figure ill-defined in some ill-defined world (isn't that what we all are, really?). But mind you, not a predictable "goth" or "PC alternative" artist chick ("PC" art is always just whining moral indignation posing as art). And she's also got to be business-savvy enough to not be content to just be a poor artist. Let's sell ourselves too!

I mention the Julee Cruise music because she is not SO out there that she's "inaccessable;" like her and like David Lynch (and Roman Polanski), my kind of "wierd" art has to have enough familiarity to it so as not to alienate audiences completely; wierd enough to make people puzzle and feel like they can say [i]"Aha! I understand it"[/i] but probably don't really.

I want to read Gertrude Stein aloud with her, and put on productions of Samuel Beckett's short plays and attend lectures about artistic expression given by Patti Smith. We will have Tom Waits music playing on Sunday morning as we make our coffee. In fact, let's live in NYC and have Patti Smith and Tom Waits over for coffee on Sunday morning!

This is who I am. Consider this post my "personals" ad. Artsy chick, where are you??!...
 
Snow in the lowlands!
01.05.04 (11:55 am)   [edit]
I live an hour (or less) from the mountains and snow, though the temperature here has been dropping at night to right around freezing. This weekend I was driving out of my neighborhood and a neighbor's yard was FULL OF SNOW! Just one front yard! A snowman & the whole bit! Apparently they went up to the snow and came back with a truckful and dumped it into their yard. Neat!
 
Take the link!
12.30.03 (12:11 pm)   [edit]
BTW, for some fun, take that link (over on the left) to emotioneric.com: "Eric Conveys An Emotion." It's one of my favorite (and internationally famous!) cheesy and loads of fun websites on the entire 'net. Enjoy!

PS: scroll down Eric's list of conveyed emotions (appx 3/4 of the way down) to "Running With Scissors," that's one of my favs. Tee hee! Also "Caffeinated."
 
I Need A Vacation
12.30.03 (9:30 am)   [edit]
I [i]SO[/i] need to get outta town! This morning I realized that since I moved here in late 1999 I haven't really been out of the area at all. I need to get out of here. For a few days at least.

That is, I've been up to about 100 miles away and in different cities, even for weekends at a time, but these trips were always to familiar places (usually visiting friends). I mean I need to get [i]out of state[/i] or something. Or to a huge city (I feel "at home" in the biggest cities; I'm definitely a city guy).

And right now, with Jan 1st & 2nd off from work, I could sneak in a couple extra days away without using up accrued vacation time. How perfect! But have I planned anything? Nope.

So like on New Year's Eve a friend expects that I'll be there, but this idea is really boring to me. I need something new, especially on New Year's Eve. Doing something new on New Year's Eve has always been symbolic for me.

I mean, I [b][i]REALLLLLY[/i][/b] need to get away! :shock:
 
Christmas Was Finally Alright!
12.29.03 (10:46 pm)   [edit]
Now that I'm old, my family kinda got Christmas sorta ok. I mean, I didn't hate it and didn't roll my eyes (as much :roll: ) this year and crave to get out of there.

My aging mother finally got me things I actually wanted instead of crap that I would smirk at and dismiss with some kind of playful comment (so I wouldn't appear TOO spoiled and ungrateful).

My sister cooked and was sorta normal (after all those years of drinking too much and abandoning her kid). All my nephews & nieces (my sister's kids - - four kids from three guys) now live near their grandma (my mom) and I asked mom about that. Does she like having all these people around? She said, [i]"Well, it's different. Everyone lives within about a mile from here and everyone's working and taking care of themselves. It's kind of nice for a change!"[/i]

Believe me, this is a big accomplishment in my family. So, now that I'm old (and I'm the youngest of mom's kids), it seems that we may finally be getting a bit of a clue about how to do it nicely. It wasn't great or "Norman Rockwell" all-americanesque, but for this broken family it's the best we've done in a few decades.
 
Holy Alzheimers Batman, I'm Old!
12.29.03 (6:25 pm)   [edit]
As they say: crap!

What happened? I was going along just fine and suddenly everyone is younger than me. And people in the age-range I was always comfortable being suddenly are calling me old n shit. I don't look old. I don't feel old. [i]I don't want to be old![/i]

Am I supposed to be all grown up now? How the hell do I do that? People expect it of me when the hear my age (but don't see me - - like on blogs and in chatrooms), but I don't feel like I belong among those old farts! [i]That's not me![/i]

I don't know how to BE old! For chrissakes!

WTF?!